woo, long post that only jen will read and respond to,, none of you other bitches will bother reading this, so i will start off by saying fuck you.
its been a while and alot has gone down.
i guess ill start with the redemption shows, they seem forever ago but im still totally stoked to have been able to participate in that, let alone play it. aside from being nausious from paint fumes from the night prior, being hotter then the depths of hell, dehydrated, having had that had been sliced open very VERY deep, a smashed thumb, mad cramping legs and no sleep in three days, it was the time of my fucking life!
living in oakland is awesome, living with mandy is awesome, alex is a good room mate, im pretty sure our landlord is some sort of a prostitute... 3 am visits from loud black men banging on the door,, hmmmm... anyway, i love it here, i miss my b-town homies (the very few that there are) and wish i could see them more often. i dont even see my friends from here enough, i spend too much time working orhanging out alone watching stupid maury and jerry springer...or star trek videos. i need to hang out with people moreoften, nothing inparticular, just hang out time. goddamn work. speaking of, i really do like my job aside from working with 90% total fucking idiots, its a fun job,,,, they only scheduled me 10 hours next week and i cant work one of them cuz wereplaying a showin sacto... that worries me...
the space bar on this computer hates me
been playing fun shows and have a bunch morecomming up that will hopefully be just as fun and im sure they will be. going down to southern california (fuck all of you who call it 'socal') the first week of june and im totally stoked about that, not only to play the shows and go on a road trip with cool people but just be in LA andbe able to see all the pretty things in person, hopefully be able to get some painting in...
havent been painting nearly as much as i would like to be lately, mostly due tothe people inormally goout with are all on probation,, that and a weird lackof trains,, what the fuck?! on a bright side, ive been paintingwith new people, friends from seattle have been commingdown every so often, been going up to sacto to paint with somecool folks up there,,, none of you care about that.
i really want to and need to start doing more canvas art, i miss doing that
i stoped taking classes at SVC because i got accepted into a good medical program in napa,, not looking forward to the drive but the long term rewards will be worth it
the other day i almost died due to stupid cars sucking,,, the gas pedal on mandys car got stuck in accelerate on the bay bridge and nomatter how hard i mashed on the breaks, nothing,,, finally got it to stop but only aftersome hard work and a lot of thoughts of dying going through my mind,,, i hate cars but without them i couldnt survive
despite all of this good shiti listed, i somehow am still totally stressed and all fucked up and depressed and i dont knowwhy,,mandy is gone right now andthat doesnt help obviously,,,i miss her alot,,, i think i let shit build up too much by hiding it all the time and pretending like im all smiles all the time,,, but you dont want to hear me bitch, i do that enough as it is,, not that you will read this anyway
falling off a moving freight train sucks,,, almost getting killed byt freight trains sucks,, breaking sunglasses that dont belong to me sucks,,im still awesome
im not sure what else to say,,, i know theres more but i think that will be it for now,its fucking 345 am
love, your superior